Officially Stefny

Wow, it’s been a month since my last post.

I keep meaning to update more, but I do my best blog writing when I’m in bed trying to sleep. My brain won’t stop and sometimes I write entire blog posts, cover letters, or essays in my head. Of course, I’m desperately trying to go to sleep as it’s usually late and I have to wake up early for work, so I never make myself write them down. I’ll try and try to dig around my brain in the mornings to remember what I said, if I remember that I did it at all.

My next music business certificate class starts a week from tomorrow. Now that I’m used to isolation, hopefully I’ll be in a better headspace for this class. I’m expecting it to be more difficult since it’s not an ~intro class. It is about legal stuff though, which is exciting for me since I did previously consider going to law school. Maybe I should’ve done that. Oh well.

In addition to the certificate I’m currently pursuing, I want to look into a program at NYU. I wanted to go there for grad school because they had THE PERFECT program, but I couldn’t afford it. This certificate isn’t cheap, but it’s not like attending grad school. I applied for a scholarship for it, so if I get it, I’ll consider it.

In other news, we got word last week while I was on vacation that we will NOT be attending State Fair this year. I’m bummed about it, but also completely understand why. The order came from the top, so there’s nothing we can do about it. We had started looking into hotels and ordering supplies and everything already because we didn’t want to be unprepared, but I think we were expecting the fair to be cancelled before we expected to just be pulled out from it. It came as quite a shock when my coworker texted me about it. At first I worried about our jobs, but he said our manager didn’t seem concerned. I’m still wondering if I should be, though. I really do enjoy my job and would love to have something to do – it’s really hard when your entire job revolves around events and there’s nothing going on – but I also need to think about what might happen. I’ve been looking online at a few jobs, but only ones that are really what I want. It isn’t like before when I was out of school and working at the station part time and in desperate need and would do anything. Like I said, I love my job, it pays well, and has great benefits. So much is in flux right now, though. Nothing is certain. And it’s obviously my personality to worry.

Speaking of personality, I recently took an enneagram test. I didn’t want to pay, so I just took a free one, but it classified me as a 6.

From the Enneagram Institute: Key Motivations: Want to have security, to feel supported by others, to have certitude and reassurance, to test the attitudes of others toward them, to fight against anxiety and insecurity.

This does not mean that they do not think. On the contrary, they think—and worry—a lot! They also tend to fear making important decisions, although at the same time, they resist having anyone else make decisions for them. They want to avoid being controlled, but are also afraid of taking responsibility in a way that might put them “in the line of fire.” (The old Japanese adage that says, “The blade of grass that grows too high gets chopped off” relates to this idea.)

You can, of course, read the rest for yourself, but that pretty much sums it up. I know that personality tests are highly debated as slightly (if any) more accurate than astrology, but this test, my MBTI, and my astrological sign are all preeeeeeetty accurate. There are lots of things that could apply to anyone, sure, but when I look at other personality types or star signs that aren’t mine, I will notice many things that very much do not apply to me. Surely there is a kernel of truth within them all.

If anyone wants a stab at guessing my MBTI/astrology sign based on the above information or what you know about me, feel free to leave a comment.