Officially Stefny

Today was a hard day for me.

I (might have) found someone on the internet after literal years of searching.

I met him in high school on MySpace. My mom wouldn’t let me put where I lived so I had to make something up. I said I was from Auckland, NZ. He friended me because he was about to do a semester abroad there and wanted to meet people. I told him I was lying and I was actually from Texas.

He was from Michigan. A place called Flint I had never heard of (at the time) but he said it was the murder capital of the world.

We started talking. Became the best of friends. Would talk on AIM all day and night. We even talked on Xbox live all night until the sun came up. We even video chatted on whatever platform that was then – was it Skype?

I was completely in love with him. Like really in love. More so than I was with my first boyfriend. I begged this world traveller to come to Texas.

Then one day he got a girlfriend. From Texas. Tyler, to be exact. I saw on his profile that he came to the Alamo. I was so upset. I begged him to stop by and see me, Austin wasn’t that far away, and San Marcos was even closer. He said he didn’t want to bring his girlfriend around.

She moved up to Michigan to live with him, I assume at his parents’ house. I stopped hearing from him. I was distraught.

I should add that at this point we had been friends around 3 years.

One day, I received SEVERAL messages from his girlfriend across multiple mediums: MySpace, Yahoo mail, even Neopets if you believe it.

She said he’d been distant lately and wanted to know if I’d heard from him. I think she suspected he was cheating on her?

A bit later, he started appearing on AIM again. We reconciled and he said she was crazy and he would never disappear on me like that again.

Needless to say, it didn’t take long for him to disappear again.

I can’t even remember if he told me he was going to Korea or if I just found out.

He stopped posting as much, but I noticed when he got a Korean girlfriend.

I would obviously be lying if I said I wasn’t upset. I’m not upset about him being moving on, but I will never be okay with how it ended.

If I had lived in Michigan, or he in Texas, I’m sure things could’ve worked out.

But he went off halfway across the globe and never even said goodbye. Then he disappeared. After he promised to never leave me like that again.

Those were his words. “I promise to never leave you like that again.”